So i haven't posted in forever because of the new switch over with Blogger and Google...it was pissing me off for awhile so i just never signed in and forgot about my blog until now....well, since my last post was in the summer when it was hotter than a bitch, i guess it's only fitting that this one is posted in the dead of winter in michigan when it's cold as fuck....i have the weather fed to my computer live and right now it says that it's 5 degrees out and with the wind chill it "feels like" -6 degrees....yes that is six degrees fahrenheit below zero....this blows...i'm moving...lol any who....i got out of the retail business and am now working at a doctor's office which i know find relieving because i don't feel as much like a work horse as i did when i worked in retail...i actually feel educated and appreciated for my hard work...which when compared to retail does not feel like work at all...also when i worked in retail the boss would tell me every now and then that they appreciated the shit load of work i did for them, but i always knew they never really meant it...next month is march...which means march 17 th is coming up and march 17th is...u guessed it...St. Patty's Day!!! and with this being my first St. Patty's Day as a Legally potential alcoholic, my friends and i got the wise idea to wake up early on march 17th (or what we classify as early) and sit our asses in a good 'ole irish pub all day and drink until we can't see straight for eternity...sounds like loads of fun right? hell yes...it's just finding the schmuck that wants to be the designated driver thats the problem...
soooo....it's hotter than a bitch outside and it's 10:00pm...in michigan....lemme check the weather channel website so i can tell you how hot it is at the very moment i am typing this.......................................and it is 86 degrees farenheit out...which it says that it feels like 96 degrees....holy shit...can't stress this enough...it is 10:00pm in michigan...it sucks if it gets that hot during the day...what the hell...mother nature hates us....anyways...because of this sudden spike in temperature this summer, my family and i are all camping out in the living room tonight....because it is the only place in our house that we have air conditioning....i've told my dad time and time again "why don't we just get central air?" but he doesn't listen because he doesn't like to spend money....so this is weird, my dad is sleeping on the floor directly infront of me, while my mom is sleeping on the couch and my sister is in the big chair behind me....moving on from ridiculous weather....it's been awhile since my last post and yes i did get completely and utterly hammered on my 21st birthday...a rather fun and forgetful event...i can't remember half of what happened....which was completely and totally awesome....let's just say i have a really high tolerance for alcohol...here is a list of what my friends told me it took to get me drunk...because i sure as hell can't remember....I had a 'red-headed slut', a 'sex on the beach', 7, count them...7 shots of tequila, 2 shots of straight yaeger (er however you spell it), 1 shot of '151', 2 long island iced teas...and I think that was it.....so what is that...14 drinks?....i think that's outrageous....considering that i didn't puke and all i woke up with the next morning was a little bit of a sour stomach...oh well....the new job at cabela's is still going good, i still like my job...i just recently met one of my friends new boyfriends the other night...me, brandi, adam , my friend, and their boyfriend went to see Lady in the Water at the theatre...I thought it was a good movie...I believe it is one of those movies that serious people will not get, they won't like it, I think you have to be a creative and open-minded person to like that movie....after the movie we went back to brandi's and sat around the fire, while i was talking on my phone to my friend's ex-boyfriend while their new one was sitting right in front of me...lol...oh well, I love Simon, he's the best....well....I'm gonna go now....hopefully i get on this thing more often...hopefully....
So.....i got a new job...I no longer work at Wal-mart anymore...thank the lord...I love the people I work with...but 2 1/2 years is enough I think...lol...I now work at Cabela's in Dundee....I'm a Cashier...my first day was actually today...I got my cool and spiffy work shirt...lol...ummm...what else do I have to update on....OH! I turn 21 this year!!!!....July 6th I will be 21 years old...and I'm planning on inviting everyone I possibly friggin' know out to Pub 13 in Ypsilanti to help me get drunk...My philosphy has always been..you only turn 21 once...so you better do it the right way (being rushed to the hospital in an ambulance from alcohol poisoning!! I'm just kidding)....so anyways...I should have more details later....I've never been to Pub 13 before because it is a 21 and older joint...but my sister has been there...and told me that it's a dueling piano bar...i guess they will play ANY song you request on the piano...it'll be pretty friggin' sweet....so uhhh yeah...I'm a fun drunk...I'm very outgoing, polite...i swear a lot...I'm not violent whatsoever...I'm a happy drunk...so if you wanna be entertained...come see me drunk...lol...what else...did you check out my last blog? the one below this one? what amazing crap that is...i didn't know my sister had that in her...geez...my mom sent the passage to one of her online friends, I guess he's a journalist...and he basically said my sister had real talent...so if your wondering...my sister is changing career paths....AGAIN....she no longer wants to be a teacher, but she wants to work in PR...or Public Relations...PR's usually work for companies, celebrities, things of that nature to work out things with "the public".... for example...if rapper Eminem did something bad...his PR people would have to cover for him...what fun those poor people have...lol...oh well...I'm really tired...I guess I'll go...later...
This is a blog post from myspace that my sister wrote...it's absolutley one of the best essays I have ever read....I just wanted to post this on my blog so that others could read it as well...
This was written by my sister, Jessica....not me....
Click here to visit her myspace
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Realization & Inspiration A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening. You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter). and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you, and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect, and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are and its OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself, and in the process a sense of newly found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that not everyone will always be there for you, and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people as they are, and to over look their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been engrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, how much you shouldn't weigh, what you should wear, where you should shop, what you should drive, how and where you should live, what you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, who you should marry, what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with, and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable, or important because of the man or woman on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations, and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms. Just to make you happy. And, you learn that 'alone' does not mean lonely.
And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting feelings aside, smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs.
You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. . . and that it is your right to want things that you want. and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and respect, and you will not settle for less. And you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with his or her touch. and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water, and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear, so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul, so you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve. and that much of life is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success, you need direction, discipline, and perseverance.
You also learn that no one can do it all alone and its OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time: FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears, because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve, and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that you aren't being punished, it's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy, and resentment must be understood and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself. by yourself, and you try to make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every possibility."]
So, I just found out yesterday the official release date and prices for the Playstation 3....I'm excited, yet disappointed at the same time. The U.S. release date for the PS3 is November 17th, only 6 months away...but the down side is the price...or prices, I should say. Rather than taking a different route than Microsoft, Sony has decided to release the PS3 in two different versions. The cheaper version, which comes with a 20 GB internal hard drive...and no Wi-Fi...is $499.00, the more expensive version, which has a 60 GB internal hard drive, and ta-da!...has Wi-Fi is a staggering $599.00....that's nuts...of course the Playstation 3 is a kick ass system, with the advantage of backward compatability, and of course...a blue ray disc player...it will be worth the $599.00 price tag, but damn....normal people can't afford that...i will be saving for awhile before i purchase mine...of course I will be getting one....eventually, of course....I'm excited about the new games for the PS3....God of War and Grand Theft Auto 4...are among my favorites...Heavenly Sword is up there too....One thing I'm a little sad about is the release of Fable 2 for the Xbox 360...I won't be buying an Xbox 360...unless by some miraculous event that I have $400.00 just lying around with nothing to do with it...I have the first Fable, and it kicked ass...shoot, I bought an Xbox just so I could play it...my mom thought I was nuts...oh well, it was a good game and worth every penny... but I won't be playing Fable 2 :( Another thing, that I believe is "news worthy"....I think I might be one of the 10,000 finalists in the Da Vinci Code Google Quest....which will be kick ass if I am....If I am that means I get a replica Cryptex from the movie..a $300.00 value...I guess I'll find out on Monday...that's when google is sending the confirmation e-mails to all of the finalists...wish me luck...so I found out today that I will be getting my associates degree this semester...glad that's over with...lol...next step -> either find a good job...or go back to school for a second degree...choices, choices...I'm gonna go now...l4t3rz...
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for those of u who don't know l33t 5pe4k, just know that i royally pwned your a55, and here is a wonderfully pathetic explanation by the totally retarded people at Microsoft:
I had a really good Christmas this year....even though i didn't get a lot of presents it was awesome....the stuff i got was the best....Lets see, I got a three dvd set of the the old BBC movies of the Chronicles of Narnia...I've loved those movies ever since i was young...i have the original version of the Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe on vhs and it always sucked watching it because the movie was so long it wouldn't fit on one vhs tape, so i would have to get up in the middle of the movie and change tapes...now i have it on dvd and i'm absolutely thrilled. What else, I got a Shel Silverstein book, I love Shel Silverstein....it was definatley an unexpected gift...He's been my favorite author, once again, ever since I was young...I had always wanted to buy all of his books, but they've always been too expensive (i.e. $30.00 a book) and I've never really had enough to buy all of them....I got the Nightmare Before Christmas video game for the PS2, I started playing it over Brandizzle's cuz she has it, but now i get to start my own game....I got the King Arthur dvd, the movie with Clive Owen...I love that movie...i've watched it every day since christmas morning...haha what else...my sister gave me a $100.00 gift card for fashion bug so i can buy some new clothes....my mom also got me Flatout for the PS2...that game is awesome...u can fly your driver out the windshield at targets!! violence in video games is always fun, cuz no one gets hurt...lol....well i hope everyone who celebrates Christmas had a good one...now i'm gonna go blow $100.00 on clothes...haha lol
